I let her change me,
To who she wanted
Me to be.
Her clothes,
Mid-drift
And fashionably done hair.
I didn’t say no
(I was head over heels,
I couldn’t have.)
I was weak,
I was passive
I let my guard slip,
And suddenly I was not myself.
I cussed,
I flirted,
I yelled,
I did an array
Of non-me things
That cause guilt
And regret
Today.
We don’t speak anymore
(that girl and I)
I shut her out,
Realized she was poison,
And tried to rid her of my conscience.
But she still shows up,
In my infrequent
Self-detrimental comments,
The bits and bobbles
Of caring what I look like,
The year full of
Memories
Tainted by her presence,
And my caring.
McNeil High School
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