At some point in life
You realise your place
In a world so big
What will you ever really do?
So there you are
Sitting numb at the thought
You want to feel
Feel like you’re making a difference
Like you mean something
Like you deserve a spot on this crazy world
that we call home
Now you feel sad
You felt inspired for a mere moment
Thinking you could make a difference
But now you know
You never will
So now you’re sad
Wishing you could be that underdog on TV
Showing the world you really can
But now you’re frustrated
Feeling useless as you realise your size
What will you do?
What can you do?
Nothing
That’s the worst part of it
You know you won’t try
Because no matter the thoughts
There are others saying no
Saying stop, go back, don’t try
There you are
Not doing anything
Because a thought said no
You told yourself no
When all you wanna hear is yes
But how can this internal war happen
How could you contradict yourself?
You feel numb
Such a rush of emotions
leaves you empty of any others
So now you desire
To feel something
Anything
After awhile you don’t just desire
You are desperate
And we all know desperate animals lash out
But how can you lash out
If you are being cornered by your own mind?
You lash out in the only way you know how
You take what is inside and you yank it out
You purge, you bleed, you cry
You try everything too feel again
Even if it is a bad feeling
It’s a feeling
Now you are stuck
If you take this new feeling too far
You end up hurting more than you wanted to
You want to jump, drown, sleep
But you want to feel the finale
But you also want to feel tomorrow
You want to jump, but walk away
You want to drown, but swim to shore
You want to sleep, but wake up
With the hope of feeling the next day
Feeling something
Feeling anything
Garza High School
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