Choices

I didn’t choose This.
stop saying I did.

Do you Think,
I would Choose,
to be Hated by half my family?

the Same family who told me,
they would Love me,
No Matter what?

Do you Think,
I would Choose,
to have to make an Escape Plan,
if Anything goes Wrong?

Do you Think,
I would Choose,
to be called horrible Slurs,
By those who said they Loved me?

Do you Think,
I would Choose,
to suffer Silently,
With mental Illness?

Do you Think,
I would Choose,
to Realize,
That One sentence,
could set off a Chain of Events,
That in the End,
could get me Killed?

these Were not My choices.

but These were the Cards I was Handed,
And These are the Cards I must Play.