The Truth

I sit in showers
Alone for hours
Keeping my brave face is harder than it seems
Keeping this smile that gleams
I can’t go back
For with myself I’ve made a pact
Fact and fiction become one
When everything weighs a ton
It took years to perfect this mask
Now hiding is my only task
I can’t let it out
Because with it, rejection will soon sprout
Certain rules I must abide
Make me have to hide
So my hands are tied
What do I do?
To tell you the truth,
I sit in showers
Alone for hours