What am I missing?

Why am I so surprised?
Acting like it was blocks away
Surprises have happened this year

But…

What am I missing?

That you went to someone so quickly?

You didn’t tell me
Or give me subtle clues

I just wish I knew…
When we’d walk through hallways
Brought out like an endless lovely void

When we’d smile to each other
Made me feel like a bright light was in front of me

When we’d look at each other
It felt like I was looking at your good soul

Even though that meant nothing to you

What am I missing?

That you went to someone so quickly

I just wish I knew…
It would’ve saved me on tears
For something that’s worth crying

It would’ve saved me on sadness
For something that’s worth people to ask if I’m okay

Worth something to give up on

What am I missing?

That you went to someone so quickly

I just wish you knew…
How my heart felt when it realized it had to forget about you
How many tears dripped down to my phone screen
How heartbroken I felt as I was wiping my tears
How hard it is for me to hide my sadness from my family

How worthless I feel

I can’t help but wonder

What am I missing?