i had an epiphany

Sometimes i think you are my hiraeth
My true home i can’t ever quite reach
I would say its a delusion but
I know what’s real

Whenever i’m near you its bittersweet
Like a book ending with a cliffhanger
Like one big ‘to be continued..’
Time feels ephemeral and like its running out
But you’re the only thing i want to chase

You remind me of lilacs and gardenias
The smell of wildflowers and hope
Old poetry and cool autumn evenings
You remind me of love

Somehow i think you’re celestial
Born from a celebration of the universe
An ethereal woman who thrives from sunsets
A force greater than Mother Nature
Someone who has captured my heart

The other day i had an epiphany
I know that you’re my only soulmate
But what breaks my heart
Is i know i’m not yours