Red Rose

A red flower.
Green thorns climb the spine
with delicate petals..

Soft, grand petals
adorn the head flower
hiding knives, watch YOUR spine

With a smile so bright, but an arched spine
they, a “flower”
disguise using petals

The “flower” with a sharper spine hides behind petals, and they watch you fall…
down
down down

First day of school

I anxiously packed my bag the night before school
At school on the first day I feel so small
Wondering if I will make new friends makes me very stressed.

When I got my first homework assignment on the first day of school it beamed back at me and made me very stressed
I feel like I will never fit in at school
There were so many rules on the wall that they started to talk to me and were super small.

Everything felt so big because I was so small
Everyone already had friends this made me very stressed
At school some people are comfortable while others are not comfortable at school.

The school feels so big that it makes me feel so small which makes me feel stressed.

what am I to you?

what am I to you?

I think I’m special,
but am I to you?

I thought it was you and I,
or is it just me?

I thought I made you happy,
or do I make you stressed?

I try my best for you,
but am I enough?

I work as hard as I can,
but is there any way to please you?

I just want my mom,
what am I to my mom?

GRITS

Grits are awesome
Why are grits so awesome
Grits are just awesome
No explanation needed

Grits are the best food for breakfast
Just add a little butter
Grits are the best food for lunch
Just make the grits plain
Grits are the best food for dinner
Just add some butter and meat

Do you now see why grits are so awesome
It makes no sense why people don’t think grits are awesome
I hope you think grits are awesome
If you don’t then you did not eat proper grits

Monopoly

“Money does not equal happiness”
Is what the rich men say.
In an attempt to make us feel better when they lower our pay.
They’ll scrape us clean of everything we’ve got.
Then complain about THEIR lives while sailing on a yacht.
I know everybody’s got problems, but our battles we fought and theirs
they bought.
And yes as humans we all bleed the same blood, but we do not live the same life.
So spend a day in my shoes, and see if you’ll still be loved by your wife.

Mr. Corporate man, I beg, if not money then what does bring joy?
He looks up from his papers, at me, the man he wants to employ.
“That’s simple! Happiness is good health, family, a home, and food!”
I’m sorry sir, pardon me for what I am about to say
I truly do not mean to be rude.
But I feel like your concept of money and joy is misconstrued.
Your ideology is conceited and skewed.
You fail to realize those things are not a given.
If they were I wouldn’t be vigorously searching
through the floors and the walls I have riven.
Looking for something to pay with,
to purchase your given joys.
Anything.
I only need twenty more dollars to pay for my rent.
But god is that rare.
I’m so sick of this. Begging for help, sending out a flare.
Yet twenty dollars is worthless to you.
Cause well, you’re a millionaire.

But go on,
make your claims about how I should clean myself up, work harder,
do more.
You don’t seem to understand, to do those things is something I can’t afford.
And trust me I wish I could, oh how I pray I could
I pray to the Lord.
A Lord of which you are not, so don’t preach to me about working hard.
Tell me, have you ever even mowed your own yard?
For that matter, have you ever once cleaned your own room?
I mean have you ever even held a broom?!

To you, money does not equal happiness because you were born into it,
you didn’t have to witness the inner workings of it all.
You never had to watch your mother cry as she explained why you can’t play basketball.
Hiding her embarrassment by claiming it was cause you just weren’t that tall.
Wealth is hereditary,
and so is poverty.
Happiness costs a fee.
Making me filled with jealousy
and a hatred towards greed.

My childhood left me beaten and scarred.
Whereas on your sixteenth birthday, you got a new car.
But you cried, screamed, and carried on.
All because it was the wrong
color.
This business you “built”, was passed down to you from your brother.
So you have no right to show me any shame
and state my work ethic is to blame.
Because to me money IS happiness,
and to you…
It’s a game.

My Version Of The Fault In Our Stars

I’m from the hospital.
The oxygen tank I bring with me everywhere.
The stares I get wherever I go.
From the worried looks on my parents’ faces whenever I’m upset.

I’m from the cancer support group.
From the thought I could die at any moment.
I am from Agustus words.
“That’s the thing about pain it demands to be felt”

I’m from the “Ok” being our “Forever”
The book I showed him the day we met.
When I traveled to Amsterdam and when we ate at Orangee.
I am from stale cookies and fake smiles.

I from the happiness I feel in my heart
The adrenaline going through my body.
I’m from a rollercoaster of emotions
From Isacc’s bad jokes

I am from protectiveness and comfort
I am far from freedom
From my heartbroken heart when you had to leave me.
I’m from my experiences

My Cat, Billy

My cat, Billy,
sleeps on his bed,
wakes up,
sees me,
stands up and meows,
walks a little closer,
puts his front paws on my leg,
I crouch down,
low enough,
to pat him on the head,
I hear meows of satisfaction,
he returns to his bed,
curls up,
shut his eyes,
and starts to get drowsy,
my cat, Billy,
goes right to sleep.

Amplify

The vibrant color of roses
The dark color of blood
The color of velvet in the warm sun
The color of my cheeks
The color of love
The gentle rose petals falling from my hand,
Into the water of the river below,
The waterfall spraying my face with cold water
The color of tulips
The color of fall leaves, a bright dark orange
The feeling of the sun
The color of the sky at dusk,
I see the clouds against the orange sky,
The pink bottoms and yellow heads,
The feeling when you see,
The sun slipping under the horizon and the moon coming out with it’s bright blue glow,
The bright bright color of sunflowers,
The even brighter shine of the sun,
The color I feel in the mornings
Seeing the leaves a dull yellow in the fall,
Sitting in this same exact spot
Seeing and feeling the sun rise
Feeling the sun’s heart beat
Feeling warmth in my body and heart and knowing everything will be alright,
The color of grass
I rush my hands through it feeling each blade of grass and the journey it’s been on,
The grass reflecting off the edges of the river
The color of the leaves in spring and summer
The color of each stem,
Of each flower
Of each weed
Of each daisy
The color of the deep sea,
The color of the shallow rivers and streams
The way I look at the little critters crawling on and off blades of grass
The color of the sky during the day,
The color of the sky at midnight,
The color of the slick and fast fish in the sea
The feeling of looking at the tempting waters
Looking at bluebonnets and feeling their beauty,
Feeling all the feelings and letting one tear slip
Seeing the moon sliding across the starlit night

Love

Love is not torture
Love is not a toy
Love might annoy
Love is much more

Love is hurtful
We all want to forgive
We don’t want to outlive
each other that makes love powerful

love will make us cry
Love will have to wait
Love will separate
But love will always thrive and never die

With love there will be hate
But love will thrive.