I Started with it All

–I Started With it All–

Here I’m stopped and I wonder about things
Riding my bike
Wondering why
Is this just another mystery
It’s so entertaining
I ride past memories with old friends
from the past

They moved, never saw them again
So I…
started over
I read my writing over
And I
just can’t explain

The nostalgia, how insane
I read all of the the kind letters you gave
I looked at all the drawings you drew
I remembered all of you,

Oh, how much fun
we used to have together
But I
just can’t explain

Are you mad at me for something now?
This is so insane

I wrote to you,
hide and seek with them
Played board games with her
sleepover with Jaylen, too

And now you’re all gone
so I wrote a song
Don’t know what else to do
now that you’re gone, It’s true

Oh

I started with it all
Poured my ideas onto pages, oh
But now I’ve read
it all
Now I’m stuck still sitting here, ‘cause I

started with it all
Poured my ideas onto pages, oh
But now that I’ve read
it all
I’m stuck sitting here, memories fading, no

(Music)

Tear at the pages of past
I don’t know if I can last
Feeling like I was abandoned by some friends,
and I know some never said goodbye
And now I sit here, shy
Reading all the letters I was writing, until he stopped writing back
I think that I’m loosing my grip

Are you mad at me for something?
I’ll never forget the past

(Music)

I wrote to you,
hide and seek with them
Played board games with her
sleepover with Jaylen

And now you’re all gone
so I wrote a song
Don’t know what else to do
now that you’re all gone

I started with it all
Poured my ideas onto pages, oh
But now I’ve read
it all
just last year,
Now I’m stuck sitting here

Just be real, just try,
‘cause some of you
never said goodbye

Guess that you just forgot that life
But I
just can’t explain it right

Oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

I know three of you got step families
But after that
nothing was the same to me
I
just can’t explain it

Just last year, I’m stuck sitting here
in this neighborhood we played in
Watching time turn tables
And not wanting it to
But while all of you left, I stayed

Here
My bike parked in front of the park
Down the street that changed so much

Feels like I just stayed in the same tree
And let the cold seep slowly in front of me,

I wasn’t ready for that change
Why can’t life stay the same?

(music)

How, just how insane
this is
Just write back,
just text back
Just say something at all

Just throw anything
so I don’t have to sigh and
recall
that

I started with it all…
Poured my ideas on to pages, oh
But now I’ve read
it all
just last year, stuck sitting here for ages… oh

(Music slows to a closing)