I know now that our friendship was only a season
A short cycle in the infinity of time
when seeing you was what I looked forward to most
The anticipation of summer in the winter
I know now that no matter how close
no matter how vulnerable our conversations
no matter how much we laughed in the middle of the night
the memories did not last in your mind as they did mine
I know now that it was meant to be temporary
You made new memories in other seasons
Memories that replaced our summer
I sometimes wonder if I have always known this
If in the back of my mind I saw you fading
As the weather grew colder you lost your warm feeling
but I put on my coat and gloves
I added layer upon layer
I held on until I couldn’t bear the cold
I know now that I will be ok
As the layers melted off I felt unexpected relief
A relief that allowed me to find myself again
I know now that seasons change
Summer eventually turns into fall
I wish I would’ve known then what I know now