Prey

Let me give some background on myself.
I come from creole and native american descent.
My mother and father worked very hard and,
me and my brother are the first in the family born into something.
Opportunity.
The American Dream.
Being the first, I have a different perspective.
I know this shit aint guaranteed unlike a lot of my peers.
I’ve seen my uncles go to jail
cousins in foster care and having babies too young.
I’ve seen the grandmas cry and struggle.
Yet what do they all claim?
Christ.
Jesus.
The lord.
There was no religion pushed on me as a child,
My mother believing in the spirit and my father believing in nothing.
As I see the cycles of self destruction in my family,
I began to resent God.
Thinking these people just need something.
Me in my 14 year old all knowing wisdom
is stronger than all of them,
I don’t need shit
I’m okay with the fact that nobody knows after death.
Fool.
What I’m leaning in my years is for so long,
I thought of religion and especially christ,
as a crutch for people with a fear of the unknown,
but now with years of experience in this world,
seeing a little more,
motherfuckers need the lord.
This world is so damn cold.
Boys younger than me killed in the street.
If I’m a mother to one of these massacres
I would pray day and night that there is a god.
Just in the hopes of seeing my child again.
People need god,
this doesn’t really change my original theory,
but I understand now,
humans can’t handle all of this,
the evils,
the hate,
the killing.
As human beings people have to believe in something,
just to continue living in this world of great evil.
Of course with great evil there is great good.
When you come from nothing,
how are you suppost to give a fuck about a sonnet
Or fucking Shakespeare.
White men been trying kill us forever,
how can you ask me to give a fuck now,when i’m just trying to survive.
How in the world do I care about a sonnet?
At the same time.
Education is the only escape from poverty.
The only constant escape.
It’s a paradox
So what the fuck are these kids suppoed to do?
Shit I don’t know, maybe pray?