Category: 09th

when I take a walk
alone at night
I imagine that I
am the only one left
on this vast world
and as I walk I feel so small
the only thing that keeps
me company
are the little dots
I see above me
the empty space engulfs me
and I notice
the planets that
are immense in space
but in the sky
from where I am
they have shrunk
into little grains of sand
and the stars
that brighten the earth
ever so slightly
smirk subtly at me
the seem to whisper
be still
and the thought
of the sky being so big
leaves me breathless
I look up to admire
this night
so beautifully placed
so perfectly placed
and I am reassured
that there are bigger things
then us
out in the corners of
our universe

Dear the preceding generation,
Life isn’t easy, but when will it be?
Why do I suffer while others are free?
They get to stand while we’re on our knees.
They mingle and talk while we beg and plead.
“The future is yours!”
But it isn’t, not really.
We have the leftovers, all rotted and smelly,
But that won’t stop us because we are strong.
We’ll force ourselves to all get along.
We’ll clean up the rubble and start over again,
The world will be better in the end.
What we were given wasn’t ideal to work with,
But we’ll put up with it to make it all worth it.
If this is a test, we’ll surely have aced it.
Until then, we’ll say our farewells.
We bid you adieu, from our generation to you.

8:00 am
They drugged me
Until i was fake smiling.
Then all of my thoughts
Just kept on piling.

10:00 am
I told them “I need help”
They didn’t listen.
All of my dark thoughts
Started to glisten .

12:00 pm
Food comes out on trays
Looks all fancy.
The chance of us getting sick
Is unchancy.

2:00 pm
Group therapy begins
A kid starts to act up.
Staff puts on their gloves
What they do next is messed up.

4:00pm
Time to go outside
Get some fresh air.
“Look, a squirrel!’
Seeing one is quite rare.

6:00pm
Time to take a shower
And swallow more meds
Time to snack
Before heading to bed

8:00pm
“Lights Out” they say
Time to start dreaming.
For 8 more days this schedule
Would be repeating.

Dear past self,

Enjoy the blissful 10 hours
You indulge in per night
Because those nights will soon fly away.

Enjoy the endless evenings
With no responsibilities, no deadlines, no expectations
Because those too will soon fly away.

Enjoy the freedom of recklessness,
To not worry
About tomorrow, about the future, about life
Because this one may linger,
But will soon
Fly away
Into oblivion
With its beloved companions.

Staring into an empty void
Revealing the chasm
Trying to talk but can’t
The empty feeling building up inside of me

Turning to a person who’s not really there
Who has left me for all of eternity
Searching for the one person
Who can never be found

The people that were beside me before
Now trailed off behind
But when they got the chance
Stabbed me in the back

Clutched the knife
Falling, hurting, thinking
Thinking about the ups and downs
And the betrayal.

Walking on an endless path
Searching for something that can never be found
What is that thing?
A true friend.