I Love You

I love you
I love you in the way the moon loves the tides
In the way the sun cares for the stars
In the way the forests love fungi

Time moves forward
Things change, people grow
I will see you less
Going different paths
I will love you

I will age
Time marches on endlessly
I will still love you
In the way fish love the ocean
In the way bees love flowers
In the way cats love sunbeams

I will grow old and die
the world will age with me, as will you
Even after everything
When the world is nothing but mushrooms and rubble
I will still love you

An Italian Sonnet about Clownfish and Anemone

two souls meet, bound to work as one
they dance and play together.
the clownfish brings the laughter
and the anemone sees their fun
and realizes they are second to none.
tied together with an invisible tether
there is nothing they can’t weather
with enough admiration that can’t be undone.

the anemone provides protection
in return, the clownfish is a loyal friend.
the never-ending mutualistic affection
work in harmony to create a playful blend.
thinking in the same direction
their eternal love will never end.

Freedom in Free Verse

I’m from blazing sun
Sweet smoke of barbeque
Meals served family style
Grandma’s peach cobbler.

I’m from a bridge of bats
Who escape at dusk
Truth lies in darkness
Free until the return of dawn.

I’m from live music that stirs the soul
Breathe in the colorful rhythm
Exhale your troubles
When we sing, we are one.

I’m from blood that runs burnt orange
Reminiscent of fire and flames
Souls tied together with a common identity
We never burn out.

But I’m also from guns
Who deliver harsh ultimatums
Gray and lifeless and cold
Kids who fear for their lives.

I’m from humans who sleep on the street
Figures shivering in the night
Nothing is promised
Homeless, not harmful.

I’m from danger in darkness
Head down, do not reply
Be home by sundown
Bats fly free, why can’t I?

I’m from the home of the brave
I’m from angst and sorrow—an open cry
They say I’m from the land of the free
But they also lie.

Sonnet for my Owner

Basking in the sun on the porch where I lay
My owners are gone so I am left at home
The still-shaky air makes me feel alone
The sun disappears over the mountain marking a new day
Just being a dog I don’t have a lot to say
To fill my time I chew on a bone
The once-kept yard now overgrown
Day’s turn into months, do I stay?

I think my owners are gone for good
Does this mean I was not enough for thee
I hope I have misunderstood
Why did they abandon me?

The Rose

Five petals on a rose
My heart was your rose
When I met you feelings arose
I couldn’t stop
I was addicted
I relied on you for happiness
I thought I could trust you
Five petals and you made it six
My petals wilted like your love for me
Five petals left but I couldn’t leave
I depended on you for everything
My roots became weak
Five petals turned into four
I swore to be hurt by you no more
Four petals turned into three
I was as weak as can be
Three petals turned into two
All I had left was you
Two petals turned into one
I reminisced what once was
One petal left
I was at my lowest
Zero petals left
My parents crying over my grave
Petals can never grow back

The Pertinacity of Resilience

Shifting like sand,
The wind carries the grain.
Slipping on mud and ice,
After the winter rain,
Cold blisters scrape at my heels.
And though the frozen air bites my flesh
And the sun scorches my skin,
I will not let it win
For my strength resides within.
I will embrace sudden changes.
For the perception of my foundation, does not face deception,
From the sudden suspension of its completion.
I am expanding my mind.
So that I may see with many eyes,
Beautiful things that reach beyond the skies.

Free Verse For a Loss

It’s been raining for the past two days
As a kid, people used to say that rain was god crying,
But I’ve never believed in god
Still, I found myself praying for you
I prayed you’d stay with me
But the prayers never worked and you’re gone

If god is real, he’s failed me, abandoned me,
I come home expecting you to be waiting for me,
But you’re never there
I sleep expecting you at the foot of my bed
I wait for you to claw at the door
But you’re never there

Nobody prepared me to lose you
I see your water bowl upstairs,
Tucked into the corner of the closet
You were dying in
I see your half-full bowl of food downstairs
I don’t have the heart to put away

Your fur covers everything I own
A constant reminder that I’ll never get to touch it again
My lint roller sits on my bedside table but I refuse to use it
If I clean you off of my clothes, my sheets,
That means you’re really gone

The plants that you loved to chew are now dying too
It’s as if they know, as if they miss you as well
That’s ridiculous, though, because they’re just plants
And you were just a cat

Yet when I close my eyes
I see you
I see you laying on that blanket in that closet
I see the pain you were in
And how I couldn’t fix it

All I could do was lay there next to you
On that hardwood floor
My memory is branded with your exasperated mews
At two AM
I stayed with you the rest of the night
I feared that if I went to sleep, you’d be gone when I awoke
I rushed you to the vet in the morning
I left you there for over ten hours
You purred in my arms the whole way there
You were never an outdoor pet,
So I’m glad you got to see the world a bit

When I saw you again after all those hours, you meowed again
I buried my face in your fur
I held you in my arms
As you died

My thoughts are vivid with your lifeless body, your piercing blue eyes
And the final kiss I placed on your nose
I walked through those doors with nothing left
But the memory of you

Keep the Change

I give a dollar, I’m handed a dime
Which I tell them to keep: change makes me feel filthy.
It seems that there’s not enough adequate time.
If you only have coins, keep the change, keep my fifty.

I’ve been judged for my fear what feels like my whole life,
“Change is natural, change is normal”
I’m fine, I’ll get by.
I never liked change, it’s my unchanging moral.
If things were to change I think I might ___.

“Why are you afraid? Pennies are lucky!”
Am I the only one that thinks this way?
I guess it’s just my ideology.
I can’t keep my thoughts from running astray.
But I feel like it’s the policy
To repay my childhood with honesty
For blessing me with odyssey
Don’t come at me modestly
I believe this wholeheartedly
And change won’t drain my childhood ways
If I allow things to change my heart will strain
I don’t even want to imagine the pain
Of me going about things a different way.

What were you saying about a penny?

Beauty of the sun

Pay attention to the morning
The bright sun shining through
You see beauty
It ties the world together
Holds your gaze
Casts you out
Reals you in
You look at yourself in the mirror
You don’t see your beauty the same way
You pick yourself apart
But not the sun
The sun is beautiful to you, But you aren’t
You compare yourself to everyone you see
You look in every reflection windows, mirrors, black screens
You still don’t see your beauty
But you see others