I’m sick and Tired

I’m sick and tired of hearing “I don’t want the gays shoving their sexuality in my face.”

As if I can sit through a movie in theatres without sending even one straight kiss

As if I can walk down the street without seeing some straight couple holding hands or kissing

As if I can go one day without seeing horny straight teens pressed up against each other in the hallway

 

I’m sick and tired of “Not everything has to be gay!”

As if everything isn’t already dominated by heterosexuality

As if representation is too much to ask for when straights see themselves in a vast majority of

the media we consume

AS if little boys and girls don’t grow up confused because they never see boys and girls kissing other boys and girls

 

I’m sick and tired of “got hates queers”

As if god doesn’t love all his children

As if the priests who are out there raping little boys get to judge my sexuality (side note: the

ones who aren’t molesters don’t get to judge me either, because they preach that “only god can judge” and I don’t listen to hypocrites)

As if it isn’t hypocritical and straight up ignorant to persecute gays when you’re not slicing off the

hands of teenage girls who’ve touched a dick or condemning clothing lines with mixed fabrics.

You don’t get to pick and choose.

 

I’m sick and tired of “The gays will convert me!”

As if we’re going door to door with pamphlets and ridiculously long explanations. Y’know, like

the Jehova’s witnesses.

As if being gay is as much of a choice as being staight

As if conversion therapy uses several inhumane and unethical methods, such as torture and

abuse, to convert straights to gays, and NOT the other way around.

 

I’m sick and tired of “I wouldn’t be scared”

I am sick and tired of “I understand”

As if you have an idea what it’s like to fear for your life during everyday activities simply

because of who’s hand you’re holding or the meaning of the flag on your shirt

As if you have any idea what it feels like to wake up and learn that 50 of your brothers and

sisters were murdered.

As if Pulse affected you the same way it affected us.

As if you can look at Matthew Shepard and Pulse and think could’ve been me.

 

I am sick and tired of fighting for my rights

As if loving someone means I automatically forfeit rights I should’ve been born with

I am sick and tired of hatred

I am sick and tired of discrimination

I am sick and tired of being treated like I am not human

As if being in love is evidence enough that I am disgusting, filthy, inhuman creature

who deserves nothing but death.

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Ode To Chocolate

Chocolate, chocolate my sweet dream
You are so sweat you gleam
You call me in my sleep
I will never think of you as cheap
I would die without your smell
I wish to unwrap you from your shell
You call to me like a singing bell
I wish to feel your silky smooth self
I will always crave you like a wolf
I picture you when I’m hungry
When I eat you I become sunny
Chocolate, chocolate how I love you

 

The Epic of Vesperum

You took me in when I was all alone

In the form of a child you raised me as your own

I didn’t even know who I was, what I was

I had forgotten my memory

But still your smile was simmiring

I looked like a 10 year old boy

Game me clothing, gave me toys

A love between a child and mother

It compares like no other

Tucked me into bed

And I filled you with sword led

It came upon like insane man

I knew I had been foreign to this land, a demon in a man

On a mission I had ran

 

I had been a servant of lucifer, But I had betrayed him

With his mission I had concurred, but my body, he trimmed

I was a 10 year old, my memory had been lost

The wind was cold, but at what cost.

 

Then she met me in the woods

Took me in, her lovely inn, fed me like kin

I love her like so and she loved me back

Thought of me as her child

Took me in, her lovely inn, fed me like kin.

I was the child she never had.

 

Then came that one fateful day

She was young, hair not yet gray

I had regained my memory

I was never meant a family

 

I was put here to kill her, and kill her I shall

I did not want to kill her, But I was a being most foul

Put my sword through her head, her screams echoed loud

I was a soul taking demon, did this I had to

 

Soul demons must reap souls

(Send it again, through her lent, after her kin)

I felt like I had no choice, I did not have a voice

I am nothing but sadness

(Such the fate, of just, a demon)

I am not in charge of my own voice

 

Soul demons must reap souls

(Send it again, through her lent, after her kin)

I felt like I had no choice, I did not have a voice

I am nothing but sadness

(Such the fate, of just, a demon)

I am not in charge of my own voice

 

Soul demons must reap souls

(Send it again, through her lent, after her kin)

I felt like I had no choice, I did not have a voice

Ode to The Stars

As I gazed up to the stars
I strumed my guitar
I saw the jaguar in the stars
How could we like without you North Star
And what about you shooting star
The bright light you shine in my eyes
How you bright up my skies
But how sad you die
Then how it’s beautiful how you make another star again
And you are bright and beautiful
And the way you walk the sky
I wish I can see you again
Please help me now…
I am underground
Never to see you again
I could stare at you for billions of years
Oh stars oh stars I miss you so dearly
Please oh please visit me again

 

“Soccer”

Zooming through the air
You are the spotlight

When somebody kicks you, you take flight
It’s quite a sight

All your tricks
That nobody can predict

Your great designs
That has a lot of shine

Nobody could survive without you
It is quite true

You bounce and jump all over the field
You’re on the go so much, you start to peel

It is quite true, nobody could survive without you
You are the one, the only, SOCCER

 

why i cant tell you

Why can’t i tell you how i feel it’s probably because i don’t know you that much but i want get to know you man why do i have to be shy it makes me want to cry that i dont have the courage to talk to you and get to know you makes me feel like little and weak and i know this is high school and i shouldn’t put so much energy and emotion but i can’t it’s o or 100 and i dreaded the answer because it’s usually,”can’t i only see as a friend”or“maybe when you lose weight’’ these answer felt like getting dommed by a stone and i’m like how can a person get owned and pwned and the same dang time or maybe i’m overthinking it and this person will say yes which would make me feel like the best than the rest and jump start my heart man i hope i don’t fart