Evelyn

Every day
Every night
I fall
Further and further

Falling
Falling
Falling

For her.
Her smile,
Face,
Energy,
Everything.

I stay up.
Later every night.
Thinking of her.
Every feature.
Writing her letters,
Poems.
Crying over thoughts.
Whether we’ll become more
Or stay as we are.
Wondering.
All night.
Hoping for more,
Hoping to be the one.
The one for her.
The one that makes her smile.
Her first thought,
Her love.

I finally have enough courage,
To tell her.
I probably mean nothing to her.
Nothing more than a friend.
Not how I see her.
It’s okay.
Even if she’s into girls,
She’s not into me.
Never.
I thought I had a chance.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe I thought wrong.
It’s always maybe.
I tell her how I feel.
I ask if we can be more.
Maybe she says.
It’s always maybe.
But it’s better.
Better than no.
I move on,
Once again.
Hoping again,
To find someone.
Someone who will love me,
And
I love back
Like I do,
For Evelyn.