Month: January 2020

Fear

Fear is the color violet purple like the ocean at sunset.
It looks like a burst of lightning.
It smells like a dead dragon lying in front of me.
It tastes like through up in my mouth.

Envy is a slithering insecurity.
Envy is the feeling of drinking poison.
Envy is a snake.
Peace is the caress of water on skin.
Peace is the feeling of laying in the grass.
Peace is a whisper of a dream.
Anger is the ringing of ears.
Anger is the feeling of tearing paper.
Anger is a confining box.
Love is the flicker of heat across cheeks.
Love is the feeling of curling up in a blanket.
Love is the twinkling of fairy lights.
Hatred is a vein of darkness.
Hatred is the feeling of dirty dishwater.
Hatred is boiling storm clouds.
Joy is the warmth of sunlight.
Joy is the feeling of being uncontainable.
Joy is a jack-in-the-box.
Sadness is the pressure of a grey day.
Sadness is the feeling of a weighted blanket.
Sadness is humidity.
Emotions are a movie full of color.
Emotions are the feeling of an unpredictable book.
Emotions vary.

Every day
Every night
I fall
Further and further

Falling
Falling
Falling

For her.
Her smile,
Face,
Energy,
Everything.

I stay up.
Later every night.
Thinking of her.
Every feature.
Writing her letters,
Poems.
Crying over thoughts.
Whether we’ll become more
Or stay as we are.
Wondering.
All night.
Hoping for more,
Hoping to be the one.
The one for her.
The one that makes her smile.
Her first thought,
Her love.

I finally have enough courage,
To tell her.
I probably mean nothing to her.
Nothing more than a friend.
Not how I see her.
It’s okay.
Even if she’s into girls,
She’s not into me.
Never.
I thought I had a chance.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Maybe I thought wrong.
It’s always maybe.
I tell her how I feel.
I ask if we can be more.
Maybe she says.
It’s always maybe.
But it’s better.
Better than no.
I move on,
Once again.
Hoping again,
To find someone.
Someone who will love me,
And
I love back
Like I do,
For Evelyn.

The grass is frosty
The green grass got so shiny
and so cold so fast

My, oh my! What has happened to the sky?!
It is so very hot, feel like our skin is gonna fry.
Why, oh why! Must this happen to I?!
Our extinction has come, doomsday sirens begin to cry.
Try? Don’t try. Because the end will not comply.
Lie, just lie. It is time for us to die.
Don’t panic, It’ll be over in the blink of an eye.
Goodbye, goodbye. Get ready to fly.
Reach for the light, feel the darkness purify.
It’s the End of Time. Oh my, oh my.