Hey, I have to tell you something about that one girl named Change
I know that you know her
And I just need someone to talk to and to spill the tea on what’s been happening
But anyways, listen and let me vent real quick
You see, Change and I have a complicated relationship
These are strong words but I love her and hate her at the same time
I know that sounds rough, and I may sound mean
But you should hear about the things she does to me
One day, she smooth talks and whispers in my ear about all the things we’ll achieve
And the next, she’s yelling about how I’m falling behind and there’s no hope left
She’s there to pick me up when I have fallen, but also pushes me back down deep into my stress
It drives me insane but I must confess
Through the pain I still call her and text
Because Change is enticing
The way she walks, the way she talks
The way she sways her hips and the way she tricks me with the words that come out of her lips
The way her eyes never fail to hypnotize me
because I can get a glimpse of the future through them
So with me describing this to you
Can’t you imagine how I felt when she left me for other guys
When she was right by my side, life felt great
Life was picking up momentum and swinging in a different direction
Life was peaking and reaching perfection
I was eager to take on the day, but now I’m sitting by myself watching the sun set
Gosh, I just can’t stand her
Can you understand how much it hurt
She was a blessing and an abundance of light
That left me in the dark when she was no longer in sight
All the blessings that Change once gave me
She left me and gave them to other people, is it jealousy?
One day I call Change and tell her to stay away from me
And the next day I’m telling Change I sincerely miss her and I’m feeling lonely
I’m stagnant and am like still water without her
Life is boring and without meaning without her
I have no one else’s shoulder to lean on without her
I’ve just been stuck dreaming about her
And waiting for her to look at her phone screen and see a text from me
Saying I miss her dearly
But what am I doing?
Why am I inviting her back, just break my heart again
Yes, I know, I know my relationship with her is strange
So, since I know you have met her
Please tell me
What’s your experience with Change?
by Joshua T.