it happened days and days ago
i should be over it, i know
but still i feel my racing heart
threatening to fall apart
any and every word you said
looping back inside my head,
taking hold of every thought,
every waking moment fraught
with worry that it all has changed
everything seems rearranged
i feel as though i’m falling fast
into a night that always lasts,
that burrows deep into my soul
i can’t bear what i can’t control
i never thought you’d ever say
the thing you said to me that day
my whole life’s been turned upside down
by the truth that i have found
by the truth you let me find
i’m trapped within my shattered mind
nothing’s even happening now
but i’m still on alert somehow
i can’t let myself forget
but nothing bad has happened yet
my body doesn’t seem to care
it stays this way, on edge and scared
i just don’t know which path to take
one incident has made me break
by Caroline O.